To think that I got one shot in happiness, things had to happen this way.

What I told you in confidence, you told to some fella (who'll nv be a better person than me ever) is blaming me for something I've not plotted. Dun make use of my personal life & blame me for your irresponsibility; take ownership for what you've not done for the team. I dun deserve whatever blame you've put on me, coz I did my best for the team & will continue to do so. You weren't here to see the progress we've gained through committment & determination; to see the great friendships that we've forged; to feel the confidence growing after each training.
So dun put blame on those who worked hard to improve, dun try to spoil this good happening within us (thru meaningless small talks) coz we're stayin tight & will support each other, not let anyone one break us down. Dun put blame on others juz because you're feeling insecure.

Maybe I shouldn't have shared things on a personal basis with you because I thought you were a fren to trust. It seems I've been proven wrong. How I wish you can be honest with me & tell me you're sorry for doing what you did. Or you could have forgotten that you've said anything maybe because you probably said those things out of anger. I'm pissed with what you did but being angry takes up too much energy, but trust between us is broken. That's what I have to say.

To think that I could be really happy...maybe it isn't meant to be!